Dear Mr S.O,
I believe that we all stay with someone else because we all need someone to witness our life. Be they human or not. Young or old. Parent or Child. Friend or lover.
I doubt that there is anyone on earth that goes through life completely alone. Perhaps in small moments, we find ourselves retreating into our own shell to soak in the spirit of our dreams. But as humans, we all crave the appreciation, admiration and understanding of another individual, at some point or another.
It is almost as if to cement our existence in someone else’s’ memory. Or perhaps to prove that we once breathed and lived. And to etch our dreams and ideas in another person’s mind. Because honestly, who is going to remember you when you are gone?
For the past decade I have been the most fortunate to have you as my canvas. I am not going to lie and say that my life will be ruined if I don’t have you, or you adoration. Probably it would just be different. Perhaps better, perhaps worst. But who is to say?
I am not going to lie and say that my love will persist to the ends of the world. Or that even in death, my love will endure forever. I know that I can be easily swayed with bribes of chocolate but I cannot predict what happens tomorrow. I can only tell you what is current or past.
I am not going to lie to immortalize this relationship.
But I can say that I appreciate your presence in all the time passed. In a very special way, I am the person that I am because of your influence in my life. That the course of my life has been changed forever, not because you loved me, but because I knew you as a friend, companion, lover and partner. And that I have once seen the world through your eyes.
This knowledge might have be entirely useless to you, but you are the sole witness to the past decade of my life. You might not know this but your life thus far, though separate from mine has impacted mine in many a quiet ways.
And for that, thank you…
Love, J
